Ok, so here it is Wednesday evening and I find myself wishing the week was already over. There is nothing huge that has happened to make me feel this way but rather a few seemingly small things. To begin with we had a great opportunity on Sunday morning. We had a guest worship leader in and she did a phenomonal job. As I looked around the sanctuary I saw people with hands raised, some were jumping (ever so slightly), and most were singing with all their might. It seemed as though people were enjoying it. In between the services though at least a half dozen people made it a point to let me know that either they thought it was too loud or that they did not like the style of music. Some were polite about it others were more brusk. I even received a note on our prayer request cards stating that the music that morning was more noise than music.
I think that I am a pretty stable person and one who doesn't need the accolades of man to feel like I am doing a good job yet I was kind of crushed. I walked away feeling like a dear friend had just rejected the gift I was so excited about giving him. I don't like feeling this way and I think I am now more frustrated with myself for feeling dissappointed that I didn't get the huge "thank-you's" and "that was awesome's". I guess after all, I still am relying to much on man for my worth. I know I need to keep my eyes on Christ and look to Him alone for my everything. As the great classic worship song goes, "Jesus, Lamb of God...you are my all in all."
With all this being said, would I do it again? Absolutely, you betcha!
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